A Happiness Project
"Do you remember me? I sat upon your knee. I wrote to you with childhood fantasies. Well I'm all grown up now, and still need help somehow. I'm not a child but my heart still can dream. So here's my lifelong wish; my Grown-up Christmas list..." Our 6th and final IUI was unsuccessful. I had hoped… Continue reading Grown-Up Christmas List
September's IUI (#5) was technically a "success" in terms of sperm finding egg, but I very quickly miscarried. Initial Beta was only at 22 (positive=5; but they like to see "100"), so if there was any silver lining, my hopes didn't raise much like the last time. But, like the last time, the horrendous heartbreak… Continue reading Some days are harder than others…
Even though I try, there are just no words that come close to help portray the intensity of the TWW. You straddle hope and reality. You walk a tight-rope of ups and downs. You give everything you have to put Faith over Fear. At the day of the day (er, 14 days...), you just HAVE… Continue reading Thy Will
... we enter the TWW. Again. This cycle FLEW by. And considering this cycle was so heavily monitered, that's saying something. CD 3, 4, 5 I injected 112.5iu of Follisitim, then went in for monitoring CD6 and they switched me to 100iu on days 6-8 - with bloodwork and ultrasound Days 3, 6, 8, 9,… Continue reading And just like that…
Friday's Beta test came back negative, and as you can imagine, we're highly disappointed. While waiting for results (during the TWW and those dreaded last hours), I always go thru my desired next steps. I handle things better with a plan. Admittedly, while waiting last week, I had all but decided to call it quits… Continue reading And, again…
Following My Own Arrow 